I live a lie every day. I have for many, many years. It is not a lack of love. I love my wife. I desire her, chase after her to show her how I feel and there is nothing back sexually - EVER. I can count on one hand the number of times we showered or bathed together in the last 17 years. She'd never take a picture of me like these and isn't interested in seeing one of me either. She also would never ever pose for one and has no imagination that there is more than sleeping to do in a bed. I know someone on here that is in the same situation (roughly). I am too far away to make a real effort to g… Adhik paen

The person I am saying this out loud for won't ever read it, but I need to release the pressure of being so mad at myself and feeling sad at having, at the least, missed an opportunity to get to know someone that was one of the most special people I have met in my life. She has a profile on here, but I won't say her name because I promised to leave her alone and not message her anymore. I don't even remember exactly how I came across her profile in mid-December, but she was different. Beauty wasn't her only quality. The way she moved, handled herself, dressed, and even made herself up. She had… Adhik paen